love. the answer for everything. love others. be willing to give up my rights, for the sake of someone else salvation. understanding that living for god is not about me, but about others. god called us to love our neighbors. he has not given me any options of doing it only when i feel like it, but im suppose to love others all the time. within the church we see division all over. church-members leaving churches because of their different views, forgetting that in the end we are all one body. if churches really were lead by the holy spirit, i dont get why people who have died to their flesh and is lead by the spirit dont get along in all churches. if it is the spirit speaking i believe that all people should be reach with their individual needs, not needing to split up. people forget the main idea of the gospel. that jesus was sent to earth, died and raised again, for the sake of our sins. now we are to live in the spirit, and not the flesh. we are suppose to be different, and show through our lives who jesus is. but dying to ourselves is easier said then done. i let selfishness/my flesh take control over me over and over, forgetting that i should seek the spirit for directions, and not my desires.
i believe a lot of time division comes out of pride. the need to knowing and being something. forgetting that we are not to be anything. all we have to do is believe, then we are saved. what is so simple and joyful so often become a burden, because it turns into a religious pattern that you have to follow, and the freedom there is in christ seems like is forgotten.
i just find is so incredible that god sent his own son for the sake of my salvation. jesus came in flesh, with the power of the spirit, which is basically the same thing i have. jesus is the example for how i am to live. jesus was able to give up the flesh living for the sake of the gospel. as us he was tested, but he was able to fight against if, in the sake of our salvation. in order for me to be able to call myself righteous. we are in the image – created by god, so we can bear a witness. i am set free from the sinful nature, and have received the holy spirit. it is a battle between the flesh, but i am given authority to conquer whatever it takes, because i have god on my side. the son of man died for me, and is now living and active within me. wow. the fact that guilt came through one man is so interesting, looking at the fact that one man was able to break the “spell” as well. we are to be judge, but we also have to choice. free from the law of flesh – we are now under the law of the spirit, which is based on love. a god loving me so much, that all he really want for me is to be glorified really amazes me. god want me to live for him so he can glorify me! that bloes me away! I am love, i am created to be love, i am created for love, so why is is so hard for me to love? blinded by what the world tells me, i over and over fall back to my selfish mindset where it is all about me. wired, thinking that the god of the universe wants to glorify me if i obey, and still, i dont see how he actually can bring me so much more then i ever will be able to accomplish for myself. god wants us so much more then we want him, even the spirit is interceding for us! wow wow wow.. that is my father. what i think i want, a relationship with god, is something he want even more then me. he is not trying to separating himself from me, that is me, he is trying to draw me closer and closer. i am the one resisting, not him. i was predestined to be in his image, he wanted me before i even could walk. how crazy is that?! if god is for me, then who can be agnest me?  no one i guess. im on the winning team. and the crazy thing is that i was chosen, not as the last one, but as the first, even before i knew which team i wanted to be on, not even understanding what kind of victory i would be winning. eternal victory.
something that has been bordering me throughout this book is questions and answers. i never get them. i never even find it interesting to wonder what will happen to israel, where i stand, and bla bla bla.. it frustrates me that i never get them. and sometimes i look at my attitude towards it and find it bad. but something i have discovered throughout this book is that salvation comes through faith. the jews were fighting the gentiles about who where right, and what it all came down to was that non of them were. their fancy answers on their questions did not bring salvation, one thing did: faith. Thats where i find myself. i dont need to know evereything, i dont even want to know everything, because i know god is in control over it all, and my job is not to answer for people´s questions, but it is to believe and love. God is sovren and in charge, as long as i am under his commands im safe. and … i know god wants all people to get to know him and his love.