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Var det kanskje på tide å begynne å blogge litt igjen?

Hanne Cathrine — Wed, 24 Aug 2011 11:42:11 +0000

De sier jo at det er så inn i tiden å blogge. At man kan tjene penger på det osv. Det er jo noe spesielt spør du meg, og det er vel ikke det jeg tenker å oppnå med å begynne igjen. Men i det siste har det slått meg hvor viktig det er å vite bakgrunnen om noe, for så å forstå hvordan og hvorfor resultatet er som det er.. Derfor tenkte jeg at det kanskje var på tide å begynne å blogge igjen. Jeg er i starten av helt ny fase i livet mitt, og det er en historie der som kanskje en dag blir verdt å fortelle.

Army girl

Hanne Cathrine — Thu, 20 May 2010 01:54:16 +0000

Once upon a time I wanted to be in the army. I wanted to show the world that I could do what no one expected of me. Instead of joining the army I did a DTS. The connection between the army and DTS, you get training both places. To be a part of the army you need to let go of your own plans, how to work out and become stronger. Someone is teaching you from the beginning how you would go into a battle, you are given the weapons to fight. Now I see why I wanted to be in the army. Im a fighter. Not for my earthly nation, but for Gods Kingdom. Im not stupid, so I know they dont want to let you out in battle without training. Willingness to suffer for something bigger then yourself. The more you train, the more ready you feel. Its the same with Gods army. The more I study the word of God and get the training by His Spirit, the more ready I feel to go out in battle. I know who Im fighting for, I know that the loss of my flesh is worth something bigger. Eternal life. Im called to be in the army. Im called to be a part of the Kingdom. How can I not want to fight for it?

I have the tools through the Holy Spirit and the Bible, how can I not want to know how to use it?! Why would I be willing to let my brothers and sisters suffer because I was lazy and did not train right? I dont want to have that on my shoulders. I want to know the truth, I want to teach the truth, I want to be trained based on the truth – because I know thats the only way to victory!

Philippians…

Hanne Cathrine — Sat, 15 May 2010 18:31:27 +0000

Final Application Philippians

Example of Christ…

Do I need to suffer to be able to understand what real joy is? Do I need to go through suffering to understand how Christ is? Suffering is an interesting word to me, and I dont think I always understand the meaning of it. Looking at Jesus life, how He went through suffering for my sin. I dont think I understand what that means. To carry all the sins of the world on your shoulders, that must have been pretty heavy. To walk the steps Jesus did for me, I dont think I ever will be able to understand the sacrifies that was made. I find it hard to say that Im willing to go through suffering for Christ, not because I dont want to, but in reality I dont see where it will be a change for it to happen in the way Jesus did. Suffer on a daily basis to understand more of Christ, I feel that the fact of dying to myself is what makes most sense for me to interpret it is. I find it so hard to lay down my selfish motives and trying to walk everything I do in love. But I think it all comes back to know God, understand more of His character. A girl from the DTS said in her graduation speech “How can you fall in love with someone you dont know?”. The sentence have been printed in my head ever since. It is why I am here. How can I fall in love with God if I dont know Him? How can I even be willing to do anything for Him if I dont know Him? Reading through 1 Corinthians the understanding of love becomes more clear: “Love is patient, love is kind, love is ont envious or boastful or arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful, it does not rejoice in wrong doing, but rejoices in the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends.” I believe when Im able to live out this love pure and true, thats when I will understand what it means to suffer. It is not about me or what I can get out of it, but its about what I can give to others. Through this love Christ gave His life for me. He fulfilled the whole standars of love. It is overwhelming to me. Jesus was patient for me, not for His own way – but for mine. Bears all things and never ends. How can anyone resist a love like that?

Out of this love Jesus suffered, and it is out of this love Im called to suffer. “love your neighbor”, easy to say hard to do. There is no selfish motives involved at all. But will I ever be able to understand suffering before I understand what love is?

I see my relationship with God as a love relationship. First I fell in love, but now its the time to get to know the One I fell in love with. By going into detaljs of the Bible, to understand Gods character, it is now I truly starts to see everything Jesus did for me at the cross. Gods holiness is starting to be reviled to me, and the more I understand it, the more I feel it humbles me. How can I not be grateful for Jesus suffering for me? How can I not wanting to be like Him, showing my love for Him by dying to my own flesh and letting the Kingdom of heaven be my daily motive for where I will walk? There is still so much of the world in me. It makes me sick! I dont want it! I dont want to hold on to the burden that is making me fall over and over. But if I dont seek the truth in God I will never be able to understand how He took my burden. This is where I has to be less of me and more of God. This is where I have to come down to my knees and say “God, I dont want to live for myself, I just want You”. All my own steps cant take me anywhere. How did I ever even think that? The more I see of God, the more I realize how small and helpless I am. “I can do all things in Christ who strengthens me”, all things! Through Christ. How am I trying to fool? Myself? Im done with that. It is now or never, all or nothing. I am the one who has to make the choice, so how can I resist the truth and hold on to something so helpless as my life, when I know that if I let go Christ will take over?

We are given the perfect example. Thought to us by Gods Son Himself. Who would be a better teacher? Who would set a better example? I dont even know how to put my picture of God down in words. So Holy – the only word that can describe, and honestly, I dont think it can. Reading through the whole old Testament I just see a face that is shaped more and more after every singel book. A God so full of majesty – the whole creations is just a small proof of Who He is. And who am I compare to that? Im nothing. Before I use to think “when I get to heaven I will ask God about this and that”… Now I dont think I would be able to say I word to Him, I think the only thing I can do is stand in awe, understanding all that He has done for me. Not because He had to, but because He loves me so much. It is not loved but love. It is forever standing.

The fact that Im even able to pray and ask God about something amazes me. Who am I compare to Him? Called His children, the word just describing how He brought me up, taking care of me, and carry me when I could not walk. He was the One teaching me how to walk, run and live. Live a life to glorify Him, so He could glorify me.

Jesus is the example of suffering, humility, power and eternal life. All given by grace through faith. No deserved, but still given. The image is given, the command is clear – live to be an example of Gods love. How can the love of God touch the heart and not transform? All I know is that when I start to understand the love, I cant hold it back. I dont want to hold it back. There is nothing worth holding it back – because it is not about me anymore.

Final book application Romans

Hanne Cathrine — Sat, 01 May 2010 02:52:08 +0000

love. the answer for everything. love others. be willing to give up my rights, for the sake of someone else salvation. understanding that living for god is not about me, but about others. god called us to love our neighbors. he has not given me any options of doing it only when i feel like it, but im suppose to love others all the time. within the church we see division all over. church-members leaving churches because of their different views, forgetting that in the end we are all one body. if churches really were lead by the holy spirit, i dont get why people who have died to their flesh and is lead by the spirit dont get along in all churches. if it is the spirit speaking i believe that all people should be reach with their individual needs, not needing to split up. people forget the main idea of the gospel. that jesus was sent to earth, died and raised again, for the sake of our sins. now we are to live in the spirit, and not the flesh. we are suppose to be different, and show through our lives who jesus is. but dying to ourselves is easier said then done. i let selfishness/my flesh take control over me over and over, forgetting that i should seek the spirit for directions, and not my desires.

i believe a lot of time division comes out of pride. the need to knowing and being something. forgetting that we are not to be anything. all we have to do is believe, then we are saved. what is so simple and joyful so often become a burden, because it turns into a religious pattern that you have to follow, and the freedom there is in christ seems like is forgotten.

i just find is so incredible that god sent his own son for the sake of my salvation. jesus came in flesh, with the power of the spirit, which is basically the same thing i have. jesus is the example for how i am to live. jesus was able to give up the flesh living for the sake of the gospel. as us he was tested, but he was able to fight against if, in the sake of our salvation. in order for me to be able to call myself righteous. we are in the image – created by god, so we can bear a witness. i am set free from the sinful nature, and have received the holy spirit. it is a battle between the flesh, but i am given authority to conquer whatever it takes, because i have god on my side. the son of man died for me, and is now living and active within me. wow. the fact that guilt came through one man is so interesting, looking at the fact that one man was able to break the “spell” as well. we are to be judge, but we also have to choice. free from the law of flesh – we are now under the law of the spirit, which is based on love. a god loving me so much, that all he really want for me is to be glorified really amazes me. god want me to live for him so he can glorify me! that bloes me away! I am love, i am created to be love, i am created for love, so why is is so hard for me to love? blinded by what the world tells me, i over and over fall back to my selfish mindset where it is all about me. wired, thinking that the god of the universe wants to glorify me if i obey, and still, i dont see how he actually can bring me so much more then i ever will be able to accomplish for myself. god wants us so much more then we want him, even the spirit is interceding for us! wow wow wow.. that is my father. what i think i want, a relationship with god, is something he want even more then me. he is not trying to separating himself from me, that is me, he is trying to draw me closer and closer. i am the one resisting, not him. i was predestined to be in his image, he wanted me before i even could walk. how crazy is that?! if god is for me, then who can be agnest me? no one i guess. im on the winning team. and the crazy thing is that i was chosen, not as the last one, but as the first, even before i knew which team i wanted to be on, not even understanding what kind of victory i would be winning. eternal victory.

something that has been bordering me throughout this book is questions and answers. i never get them. i never even find it interesting to wonder what will happen to israel, where i stand, and bla bla bla.. it frustrates me that i never get them. and sometimes i look at my attitude towards it and find it bad. but something i have discovered throughout this book is that salvation comes through faith. the jews were fighting the gentiles about who where right, and what it all came down to was that non of them were. their fancy answers on their questions did not bring salvation, one thing did: faith. Thats where i find myself. i dont need to know evereything, i dont even want to know everything, because i know god is in control over it all, and my job is not to answer for people´s questions, but it is to believe and love. God is sovren and in charge, as long as i am under his commands im safe. and … i know god wants all people to get to know him and his love.

Loooove…

Hanne Cathrine — Sat, 24 Apr 2010 15:22:38 +0000

They say a picture tells more then a thousand word, well, I believe that a life tells even more. How I live out love will tell everything about me. How I can chose to lobe someone that hurts me. How I can chose to give up my own rights in order for the other person to receive love. Come to a point in my life where its not about me, but how I can show someone else a life like Christ through Jesus. Thats the calling we all have as Christians. Its not about right or wrong, but its about loving one another. Its not about mine or yours but its about all of us being one body in Christ. As Christ died for us we are to die to ourself in order for others to see Who He really is. If Jesus was willing to give His life for my sins I should be willing to give up some of my rights for His. Love is not a feeling – its a choice.

1 Corinthians prints it really clear how love works. Its like getting to know Jesus. We have to choose to follow Him, then as we go along we get to know Him more and more and fall in love. Its not a feeling, its a choice.. A step closer to fulfill Gods plan of redemption for all man kind. A step forward to live a life more like Jesus. We are made in His image, so it is possible for us to make it, but we have to choose to try to go fro it.

I dont want to be anything other then…

Hanne Cathrine — Wed, 21 Apr 2010 15:47:32 +0000

“True Spiritual Growth requires Gods word:

Without this rootedness in the word, we may be deluded about our growth. Such “rootedness” is in truth and love, not merely in learning knowledge or accomplished study. In order to experience true spiritual growth, we must spend time the Word and separate ourselves from the hindrances of lovelessness, competitiveness, and strife.”

There is so many thing I want to be, there is so many things I want to see. I know where I want to be when it comes to God. As close as I can! But how can I get there? Its a journey. I have to take it step by step. A child needs to learn how to walk before run. I feel like Im in a walking proses of my life now. The thing is, I know what it looks like to run. Which sometimes can be really frustrating. It make me wanting to come to the place where I can run and I totally forget to enjoy the moment Im in now… Its a challenge to be and not to do… Right now I just want to be..

spring time… what does it mean?!

Hanne Cathrine — Fri, 16 Apr 2010 17:53:06 +0000

sooo.. summer is getting close, which means that its time to start thinking of what to do next with my life. Out of experience I know that whatever I say I will do, I end up not doing. For those who knows me, its not a secret that Im not a patient person. Its easy to say that I will go where God calls me, but its a challenge to actually make the walk and fulfill it.

Its been so crazy weeks lately. Since I got back from spring break we have been working on the New Testament. It is overwhelming and life changing. This is the time of my life where I start to see that it is not what people say that change me, but its God speaking through me through the Bible. God is changing me – not people… Wow.. I see the value of knowing the Old Testament, I see the love story coming together in the end. In the same time as I realize that the story never ends. There is so much more to come. I like that this is all coming now, when its spring. The world is coming alive, so am I.

The book of Zechariah…

Hanne Cathrine — Sat, 06 Mar 2010 04:31:20 +0000

Final Application Zechariah

What expectations do you have regarding God’s blessings in your life? Are you misusing spiritual blessings for fleshly reasons? Understanding the message for Zechariah’s audience how can you avoid wrong expectations in Gods blessings

Why would there be a need for me to have any expectation to Gods blessings in my life? I believe I already got it. God have taken all my sins and washed it away. Over and over He is forgiving me. Like God was giving the returnees a new change to rebuilt the Temple, showing how God have forgiven their sins and then given them a new change. To know that the Temple for the returnees did not look the same, it looked worse, but God had a plan to built a even better one . the Spiritual, shows me how Im the one who walks around holding on to my sins, while God have forgiven them and moved on with the plans He has for me. Im the problem, not God.

I dont see the big picture plan God have for my life. What I see right in front of me might not look good enough. I dont see what fruits my life as a christian is giving. Like the Jews, they were mourning for the Temple that did not look as good as the first one. I honestly dont think God cared. All He wanted for them was to seek Him in true worship. Hopefully have learned something from their mistaces. I believe its the same with me. I compare my life, and I dont see with Gods eyes. All He wants for me is to obey and follow His commands. I dont see how my Spiritual life effectes others. And why would I care? Because in my selfish little head I like to see the result of my work. I like to see how many people gets “save through me”. I like to see the difference I make in someone´s life. But is that really what matters? What I can do?! I dont really think so. What really matter is what God can do in my life. What I am willing to let God change and restore. Even though things might not look as good as they did before on the outward appearance as long as my heart is changing and walking closer to God thats all that matters. “Its not about who you are, but who you become.” Its not about what I see, but what God see.

Motives.. Looking at my life I see my motive as “me me me me me me”.. How did I get that mindset!? Am I really that taken by the rest of the world? I guess I am. Im letting media and people around my change my focus from having Gods eyes to have the worlds eyes where everything is about myself. “What can I see result in?”

I dont think I realize that Im not that mature spiritually to understand that to be blessed its not about what I can see here on earth, but its about the way the Lord looks at me. What might seem effective to me might not be effective for the Kingdom. Something I should start consider. Who do I want to spend my life working for?! Myself, where my kingdom will last 50-68 more years. Or the Kingdom of God – that will be eternal?

Giving up my own right to see the result but walk in obedience is hard, but at the same time realizing. Because I know that as long as Im walking and doing what God calls me to do I will be blessed.

I see the book of Zechariah as a book of forgiveness. God have forgiven us for our sins. What we see right in front of us might not always look as forgiveness or something better then what we had, but if we have faith, and trust in God is in control we would know that there is something so much better to come. Something we might not see or understand, but God is in control, witch should tell us that it will be so much bigger and better then what we can imagen…

Dagens Kabooom fra Helse Norge..

Hanne Cathrine — Wed, 03 Mar 2010 17:12:21 +0000

Lege Fedon Lindberg er litt skeptisk til ideen om at man kan spise alt, men ikke alltid, og mener man bør spise minst mulig mat som er veldig bearbeidet og inneholder mye kunstige stoffer.
Jeg spør folk om de gir brus til hunden eller katten sin, og de rister på hodet. Da spør jeg hvorfor, og de svarer at det ikke er bra for dem. Og jeg må spørre: Men dere gir brus til barna deres? Mennesker har et merkelig og unaturlig forhold til mat fordi vi lever i et kunstig miljø. Mange forstår ikke koblingen mellom det vi spiser og hvordan vi har det, både i forhold til helse og yteevne. Bevisstgjøring, riktig informasjon og kunnskap er alfa og omega. Da får man et viktig kompass i forhold til maten, sier Fedon Lindberg.

hmm..

http://www.vg.no/helse/artikkel.php?artid=579521

The book of Ezra..

Hanne Cathrine — Sat, 27 Feb 2010 04:16:46 +0000

Final Application

The book of Ezra

The book of Ezra. Feel I see it as a book of leadership. How the humble leader is steadfast and strong. Willing to give up his of right to be different. To be an example for the people he is leading. Thats what I see in Ezra. How He was seeking the Lord. Letting his heart be filled with the law of the Lord. He knew God. Not just did he knew off Him, but he knew God. He loved God. He understood the secret with being a servant of God. The secret that you have to lay down your own rights, be humble before the Lord, and lead the people out of love.

How can you lead people you dont love? How can you love people if you dont know what love is? How can you know what love is if you dont know God? How can you know God if you dont study and meditate on His Word?

The never ending circle. Never stop seeking God for more. The more I seek, the more He gives. The more He gives the more I have to give to others. Sounds easy cheesy nice, but it as its price. If I know the law of God I need to act on that. Even if that mean I have to separate myself from a worldly living. Thats what Im called to anyway. God did not call me to grow gray among the others, no, He wants me to be a light. Witch means I have to make a choice to be different.

If Im going to lead people to Christ I need a high standar. Witch means I have to get a standar given to me from God. A word used a lot it “culture”. Its a good excuse to do a lot of stuf we as christian might not have been called to do. As I was thinking of the community Im living in I see a lot of cultures. I dont know how many, but a lot! Witch means a lot of different meanings about everything. We are different and act out of our “culture”, and we blame it on the culture if there is things we dont get a long with or understand. Starting to think about that I start to wonder; is that right?! To blame every problem on culture?

Honestly I dont think thats a good excuse anymore. Might be for some. But I believe it is time for me to stop blaming things on the culture. Because God did not call me to live in the cultures of the world. He called me to be an ambassador for His Kingdom, and if I keep on focusing on the worldly culture I dont think I will do a good job as an ambassador.

To be set apart means to go in a different direction then the rest of the world. To show the world that what God have to offer is life and freedom.

There is a lot of stuff I dont understand and dont agree with. But I dont think I need to understand everything or agree in everything. As long as I know that I am seeking God. That I am letting God change me. Hoping that God will take away my worldly culture and give me a better understanding of what a Godly culture is. If I can live that out I think my mission will be completed.